Pornography Autobiography

Hey how is everybody. I'm sure the title has already sparked your interest. This is a poem that God has given me to share. I thought about recording it but it may be a little to real/graphic for "Church Folk". I was reluctant to share this with anyone due to it's personal and revealing nature. However God allowed the scripture to hit my mind Revelation 12:11 "And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death.I think this scripture is appropriate for a poem like this because while admitting my past struggles and daily fights may be encouraging to one, to someone else it may mean the death of my character. Some may judge and I may loose facebook friends. When you are honest about your past and sometimes even your present, people have a habit of judging but at the end of the day we answer to God and not man and for that I'm truly grateful. Those who have been tagged in this I have no clue if they have had past struggles with this as well. However I do know that they appreciate honesty and will not judge me. And let me go ahead and answer your questions now before you ask them. Do I still engage in the activities mentioned in the poem? By God's grace and Power I do not. Is it still a struggle to abstain form these activities? Almost every day it sure is. But where I am weak he is strong. Hope you enjoy.


You have heard in one of my pieces that I am open about being a virgin
So it is only right that I be just as open about struggles with lustful splurging

I have bagged enough lustful groceries to fill a few shopping carts
Because the Bible says “If you look on a woman to lust you have committed adultery in your heart”

There are times a fine woman will walk by and I will take more than a second look
Didn’t like porn the first time I saw but the second time I was hooked

Lust demons knocking down the door of my soul like a thief
Sexual thoughts running and jumping in my mind like an Indian chief

Getting excited and ignited watching her do her thang
Removing the man in the movie so I can imagine the woman screaming my name

Trying to make myself believe its alright because after all I’m still a man
All the while this lust demon won’t leave me alone so I must take matters into my own hands

And just in case you wanna play perfect and act like your mind didn’t reach the last statement’s destination
Then allow me to spell it out and be real, your boy was struggling with masturbation

And it always cracks me up when people refer to it as “self love”
Because if we truly loved ourselves we would seek the satisfying touch of the Lord above.

But instead I would hop in the car and head to the nearest strip club
I was disrespecting my sisters and myself just to get a quick rub

Watching her pop and roll admiring the view from the back
I knew I was in trouble because my Grip on God was getting slack

I was to busy gripping her hips and watching her lick her lips
I was declining spiritually but I didn’t care because she was taking me on one hell of a fantasy trip

She had my nose so wide open it became the main entrance for the devil
But God stepped in and showed me my sin on so many levels

He showed me that I was sinning with my mind, Instead of thinking of booty shaking I should have been thinking on how I could let my light shine

He showed me I was sinning with my time, the time I spent watching strippers and porn I could have used that time to tell that stripper or someone else about a soul saving friend of mine

He showed me I was sinning with my money, the twenty dollars spent on table dances could have been used to feed the hungry

And he showed me that I was sinning with my hands, the hands I had on the strippers body could have been used to help my fellow man.

And of course he showed me I was sinning with my eyes, I was watching porn and strippers never realizing this was Satan in disguise

But day by day I put this behind me, day by day it is a test I must pass

But to all my brothers and even my sisters, I warn you, NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF A NAKED A…

Pornography like drugs is an addiction that can screw up your life
And if you are not careful you can loose it all. Job, kids, husband or wife

If you are shocked or disrespected by the realness of this, please accept my apology

This is just a testimony of my redemption, In hopes that you the reader or listener may benefit from my pornography autobiography

My Name is Daniel Osbie and I am a recovering porn/stripper addict.